Tracy's Blog

Last Thursday I met with the Youth For Christ Selkirk Director and his wife for prayer.  This is something I do regularly as a way to be involved in the ministry.  (To learn about it check out yfcselkirk.ca ).  As we talked about the youth, I became heavy-hearted.  They face such tremendous challenges such as poverty and mental health struggles.  They also tend to make decision that are based on instant gratification instead of long-term wellness which can get them into more trouble.  So while I was happy that I had taken time to pray and I do believe God is at work in their lives, I drove away from the prayer meeting feeling sorrow.  As the grief settled in, I had an interesting thought, "It's a gift".  Grief is a gift.  What!? Why? How? I learned a long time ago that grief means that something significant is missing or has been taken away.  I can keenly remember being on a plane flying to Ontario in my early twenties and thinking, "I...

I'm back.  I know it has been awhile.  But I'm here now.  Happy to be connecting with you again. Last week I was meeting with my spiritual director and I was sharing with her that I think my definition of love has been changing and I hope that is it aligning more with God's love.  We were talking specifically about love's ability to endure tension.  My nature disposition is to avoid internal tension.  I don't like when things feel unfinished or I feel unprepared.  I don't like conflict - internal or external.  Uncertainty stirs anxiety in me.  Chaos and imperfections can cause irritability.  I think you get the picture of what I am like without God's power working in me! But what I've come to realize is that God can handle a lot of tension.  There is so much that is "not yet" about this world, the church, me and yet God loves us all!  He is for us.  He is with us.  He is gracious and merciful towards us.  Thi...